Thursday, August 9, 2007
Seeing a Face
Ok, maybe I am weird. Maybe I am the only person this ever happens to. Maybe I need to seek professional help. Sometimes, when I am looking at a person that I know very well, I suddenly start to see their face in an entirely new light. It's as if I am looking at them for the first time. I start thinking that all the other times I looked at them, I must have not seen it right, because I am finally seeing it clearly now. On top of that, it's almost like I am looking through their face into their very soul, and that is what is making them seem so new and different. It's like a brand new depth of seeing when before I was only skimming the surface. And I'll think to myself, "Ohhhh, that's _______(fill in blank with person's name.)" like I have suddenly discovered their true essence. And I'll feel embarrassed that I never noticed how they really looked before because it means I must have not been looking hard enough. I think I have a habit of casually glancing people over, even really close friends, without actually examining them. Even though this is a completely one-sided experience (I don't tell them what is going on in my brain at the point where their features are becoming clear in my mind), I feel much closer to the person after it than before. So now, the moment of truth...has this ever happened to anyone else? Or am I crazy.....?