The accident is pretty big news around here, a hot topic of discussion for all three kids. The accident is also popping up slowly and steadily as pains in various areas of my back, shoulders, and neck. I had some hot tub therapy tonight which has greatly helped.
I don't want to go into tons of detail about the actual accident, just in case there's a lawsuit or something (which I highly doubt there will be...but you never know for sure.) But the gist of it is, I was driving the kids home from Ava's ballet class Wed. around dinner time and our van got rear-ended...hard. It wasn't one of those little bumps that cause people to say "Well, gosh darn it. I wonder if there's any damage." This bump caused some fearful cussing (sorry, it's a knee-jerk reaction when I'm afraid. I just can't help it), and made me wonder if anyone was injured. Actually, first I had to remove the van from the lane of oncoming traffic we were pushed into, then I worried about injuries.
Thankfully everyone was fine. There's a large dent in the door to the trunk. The damage was much less than I was expecting. Not one of the kids has complained of any pains. Although Ava had to come to our bed in the middle of the night. I think it might have had something to do with some fear she experienced during the accident. She was crying and yelling for her daddy during and after the crash. I think of all the kids it had the biggest emotional effect on her.
As for me...the emotions I felt are so difficult to describe. I had never been in an accident while my kids were in the car. These kinds of experiences are so strange in that they happen so quickly and slowly at the same time. I looked up in the rear view mirror and I knew the car behind me was not going to stop. In an instant, before impact, my mind raced through so many possibilities, more than seem humanly possible. My fear for my children was so strong, I could almost taste it. I can still tap into that primal emotion if I think about it long enough. I wanted so badly to prevent what I knew was coming, but I had no control.
It's one of those things that could have been much worse, but thankfully it was not. And I truly am thankful and appreciative for the blessing of safety that was given us.