Wednesday, December 14, 2011


I'm removing myself from Facebook. It's just something I feel called to do right now. I am not even completely sure why, but it's something that has been tugging at me for a while and I need to listen to that voice. I think it has something to do with my strong desire for authentic, meaningful relationships. I don't think there is anything wrong with Facebook, and I really enjoy seeing what people are up to (friends ranging from elementary school to the people who sit next to me on Sunday mornings...) but right now I want to focus on absolute reality. I want to have cups of coffee with people in the flesh, invite families into my home, have conversations over a glass of wine, exchange letters, talk on the phone, and spend quality time together with whomever is led into that kind of friendship with me. I don't even want a hint of conflict of motivation in me, to feel the slightest bit like I am just "keeping up appearances." I want a simple, meaningful, real existence. For some reason, in order to focus on that, I feel the need to give up some other things.

I figure if someone misses me online, they know how to reach me in real life. And I hope a few people do reach me, as I also reach out. I'm starting with the most important people in my life...Cody and the kids. I want to make sure I am present and available to them in every way possible. Lucas asked me today "Do you know why I love Christmas so much?" I was 99% sure he was about to say it was because of the presents but instead he said, "Because it cancels everything." I was a little confused. What do you mean it cancels everything? He replied," It cancels school, it cancels work for Daddy, we can all be together." Yep. I want to be together. I want to know people and I want people to know me. It's not about a 25 word status or a check in at In N Out's about my heart and the hearts of those around me.

I may miss the instant connection I can get, almost a quick fix, by checking Facebook...but I am hoping I find a sense of calm in focusing my energy on deeper interactions. I don't think everyone would have to cancel their account in order to do this, but I do. That's just me at this point in my life. And if you'd like to know more, let's meet for a cup of coffee.


Rachel said...

Sorry that you're leaving FB for a few reasons, but I understand the decision completely. We'll just have to get some coffee...or in my case, tea.

belinda said...

those precious little ones will be grown and out of the house before you can blink an eye ... tough decision, but you'll likely reap large rewards.