Facebook

I'm removing myself from Facebook. It's just something I feel called to do right now. I am not even completely sure why, but it's something that has been tugging at me for a while and I need to listen to that voice. I think it has something to do with my strong desire for authentic, meaningful relationships. I don't think there is anything wrong with Facebook, and I really enjoy seeing what people are up to (friends ranging from elementary school to the people who sit next to me on Sunday mornings...) but right now I want to focus on absolute reality. I want to have cups of coffee with people in the flesh, invite families into my home, have conversations over a glass of wine, exchange letters, talk on the phone, and spend quality time together with whomever is led into that kind of friendship with me. I don't even want a hint of conflict of motivation in me, to feel the slightest bit like I am just "keeping up appearances." I want a simple, meaningful, real existence. For some reason, in order to focus on that, I feel the need to give up some other things.

I figure if someone misses me online, they know how to reach me in real life. And I hope a few people do reach me, as I also reach out. I'm starting with the most important people in my life...Cody and the kids. I want to make sure I am present and available to them in every way possible. Lucas asked me today "Do you know why I love Christmas so much?" I was 99% sure he was about to say it was because of the presents but instead he said, "Because it cancels everything." I was a little confused. What do you mean it cancels everything? He replied," It cancels school, it cancels work for Daddy, we can all be together." Yep. I want to be together. I want to know people and I want people to know me. It's not about a 25 word status or a check in at In N Out Burger...it's about my heart and the hearts of those around me.

I may miss the instant connection I can get, almost a quick fix, by checking Facebook...but I am hoping I find a sense of calm in focusing my energy on deeper interactions. I don't think everyone would have to cancel their account in order to do this, but I do. That's just me at this point in my life. And if you'd like to know more, let's meet for a cup of coffee.